So the past few days have not been the greatest for me. I know some of you read this blog to see who I am going on a date with and what crazy adventure I might be going on. But today I just need to get a few things off my chest....
1. I want to say thank you to those who talked me back to reality when I was about to back slide with Him. For a quick second, I somehow gave him control while he was venting and I let it go to my head. Well I am back now and still single.
2. I recently got another retail job( I tried my damnest to stay away). Well lets say, although I
am glad I have a job, I hate it already. I took the job because I needed a part time gig since I will be going to school at night and have an internship on top of school. The main reason is because I need some money.
Here's my problem, what is the purpose of working to get money, if you don't have time to buy or do the things you want. Since you don't make enough money to pay your bills and to buy clothes for work, and you work too much to even enjoy the fruits of your labor.
As a part timer I always work the closing shift. Meaning I go in at 2 and do not leave until 9. After spending 7 hours on my feet, I am too tired to do anything. I can barely watch TV.
Tonight a few friends were going to a free party, I got dressed and ready to go, when I realized I had to be to work the next day, and then I started thinking of all the things that I needed to get done, and then I thought about the bills I had to pay, then I thought about how I don't make enough money. By the time I finished thinking of everything I was too depressed to go any where.
WHAT A HORRIBLE LIFE!!!!
I know I am having myself a pity party for now, and I am sure that next week I will most likely not give a fuck and just go out. Since I cant let this horrible job control my life. But right now....its not happening.
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