I am back to the feeling that maybe one day Him and I will be back together. Right now I am being selfish and taking time to explore. I don't know if this feeling is because we were finally able to talk about various issues and I feel that I could have went back to him. But I still want to be single for a while.
I am constantly thinking about what some of my friends would say if I went back. That's one reason why I made the choice. But then I remember an Arabic proverb I read that says friends give advice in the best interest of them. Meaning I can only take their opinions for face value. The ultimate choice is mine.
I am the one who was in the relationship and knows every story and every detail. Outsiders are only feeding off of what I told them or from the point of the relationship that they came in on.
But what if I am forcing something that may not be as inevitable as I think it is. I keep telling myself to wait another month and see where my head is at. If I feel I need another month then take that month. If its true love it won't die, he will be there. But then what if it is true love and he is not there....
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